love the world!

Sick me

2009-02-05T19:34:00.002+08:00

Extremely blocked nose+coughings+irregular breathing, I'm pretty much still sick. =(

Argh hate ittttttt. Overslept today, thank goodness for melisa's msgES! Usually there's like an alarm in my head, making me jerk abruptly but today was totally a mess due to the medications. Arghx2. And i'm still coughing, and sneezing, and carrying my box of tissue ard, in the hse LOL! Sighs I shld enter the competition for most no. of tissue BOXES used, i'm a sure winner.

Hellooo you.

2009-02-04T23:09:00.003+08:00

Lol haiyooo blogger just cant be compared to lj, really. And their template is forever so lousy! I spend 1min, looking+ clicking then closing. Hmm back to this page due to my random-ness, lj will be a super private area for special ppl then(: and here will be for my close frens! Since you guys alrdy know &&I'm far too lazy to create another new one hehehee.

Yeap 2assignmnets+2papers more till END OF YEAR2! Tts so fasttt, i din have the time to blink lol. Still, with age comes responsibility. Oh I cant wait for chalet! Whoo. Will be super fun i bet. Anddd angel/mortal=more more fun LOL!

Okay will be back to cont. I shld start on my flash portfolio ever since i start browsing pics taken these 2years. I LOOK SO HAHAHAH-okay bye.

p.s.: This template very ugly ehhhhh.

2008-12-02T22:15:00.002+08:00

I came into blogger as lj failed me, idk why. It's amazing how I can still rmb my pw, I'm just gonna rant all I want in this space so dont mind me, leave if you want. I bet no one's here anyway.

Srsly, I'm super beatttttttt. Wed-ITA storyboarad, thurs-EA presentation. fri-SF essay, nxt wed- ITA presentation, fri-DPIP case study &poster and many I've no clue. This is insaneeeeee, really. Every day I come home, seated right infront of my screen, thinking how to finish up my work. I dont wanna do this anymore. Is there another route out? Cause anything is better then this shit load that I'm working on.

It's damn hard for me to think of the positive side. It's super difficult for me to cont pushing. Oh right my 'pillar of strength', er no failed me too. You'll get the gist if you're close. If not, dont bother.

2008-03-22T17:55:00.002+08:00

Finally I'd got the strength to get up. Super dizzy, idk why. The whole room was spinning, and I felt so terrible. I could do nothing but keep my eyes closed. Legs ached and my butt hurts, I feel like eating icecream=(

2008-03-19T12:34:00.002+08:00

Again I woke up to find an empty house, this feeling kinda sucks. And... today I found sth, which made me feel so loved. Mommy msged me saying daddy bought a packet of noddle for me, lest I die in the house.

-.-

What a way to show concern, aye?

And true enough, I found the noodles, and there's extra chicwing, hotdog, egg, harshbrown etc. Idk why, that moment I just teared. He used to buy food for me, but stop after he got busy. I dont talk to him about my sch/work stuff, cause everyone's so busy with their life.

But he knows I almost fainted the last time I wokred, I told him. But gotten no response..

Seeing the noodles really make my day..

2008-03-17T16:30:00.025+08:00

Last night was full of tears, laughters, talkss. I din expect myself to do so. But I'm glad I spilled most of the stuff out. Sigh idk..

--

Okay had a really good time with those bunch of ppl ytd(: The climax was during dinner at manhattan fish market, they serve really good seafood! Great place, good food, awesome people(:(: And yz with her story! Omg tt guy-.- Really glad I went with them, more gatherings pls? I'm missing every single one of them. And oh yz! You can tell me anything, I'm here for you! Even as a listening ear(:(: Man I missed catching up with them.. Everyone's life is so diff now =(=( And.... No photos! Just the.. er food. Sad.

Had a mini gathering for bp people on 13th(:(: Excluding yy with her sch stuff and lp who's not free.. So it's me yz celia mk andy.

Gastric in morn and I was kinda bummed not being able to go. But they changed the time! Felt better and off I went to meet celia! And wow, felt like an auntie checking prices, comparing and all. But it was great fun! HAHA we were buying ingredients for sandwiches!

Started preparing! And... everyone chipped in to help.

Our sanwiches!!

Look at yz's ALL-GREEN-BREAD as compared to celia's ANTI-VEGGIE!

On the way...

Lastly, us!

Tts basically all the photos. Oh we dvd-ed while eating, pasarmalam at celia's and slacking at mac till ard 12. It was nice+sweet+simple+fun. Long time since we last caught up at mac, all the reminiscences...

Okay tts all for now. I've been facing this "monster" (so as she claimed-.-) and i really got to get my butt going. So, hope everyone enjoyed their day!

Thou no one will probably read this but,-.- BYE!

2008-03-16T22:22:00.003+08:00

Due to some reason, I'm back to this old blog. I realised its indeed quite dense for me to expect things to be simple. Wtr the case, I'm not gonna dwell on it. Perhaps I'm still lost in this maze of mine, I need time..

Alright ppl, fear not as I'm alright(: Thanks for the encouragements from sms, msn(: Bad results are inevitable and its not going to get to me. I guess I really need to clear my head and start to be serious. And as for work, mum had expressed clearly her view and wanna me quit. Sighhhh. And true enough this is just a part-time job=( But working there had taught me lots of stuff, and indeed its unbearable for me to leave.

Okay I'm really lazy to cont and so, bye!

2008-02-14T17:03:00.003+08:00

I'm amazed i can still remember my pw after so long. It's the mugging sessssssssssssssion but oh look, I'm blogging! Dont ask how life is for me, I'm still breathing(: And I seriously hate studying for CD, esp for brain research! It's like.. throwing all the past bio stuff I've suffered in secondary school days into my face again. Neurons? Dentrite? Right left hemipshere? -.- -.-

Life is so........ idk.

Roar.

Oh, happy valentine's.

2007-09-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

The Blog Keeping Rules:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their blog about their eight things and post these rules. at the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they are tagged and to read your blog.

was tagged donkey yrs ago by yz! so here it is((:
1. wore my cute lil white shoes and end up with bleeding blisters. BIGOUCH!
2. white pums frm yings is too small! :( sadd.
3. just ate, VERYFULL.
4. i like taking pics, anytime anywhere.
5. my name is dorothy and ppl call me dorrrrrrrti.
6. im a girl(:
7. play secret(luxiaoyu's) on piano and i'll fall in love with you.
8. icecream brighten up my day!
9. zzz.
10. im off to bathe!

alil update lest it rots. i miss my e1 girls, of course guys too. i miss bbss frens. i miss b5 peeps. i miss c02 girls. i miss sch. i miss gb. i miss the daily sch Us. i miss the geeky socks with bbsss sch logo. i miss taking 180 with yz, crossing of field everymornin, esp with all the mud when it rains. i miss mdm yeo. i miss mr quek. i miss the canteen food. i miss my locker 197. i miss the laughings. i miss the mugging in sch. i miss .....everything! blah. im off!

2007-09-13T13:43:00.000+08:00

www.drawahouse.com/
Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

errrrr true!?? not really. short post YZ i will do your 8facts/habits later!

smiles ppl!

2007-09-05T13:34:00.000+08:00

music maximal camp
one word to sum it all- TIRING very. went St Anthony's pri with high spirits, and boy was i discouraged by them with their words for lets' get loud dance. they simply stick their butt on the ground and sulked. complaining tt its boring and wanna go home. there's this petite little girl chloe,who sits all alone at the back, and when i talked to her she simply ignore, and its the same fruitless attempts from the other trainers. however surprisingly after lunch, jinjia(new girl) and her began sticking to me! yess im shock, cause many of my questions posted to them were mostly ignored. sad huhh. but then, they started clinging to me! yes initally im elated, but things changed. it became EXTREMELY clinging, like even following to the toilet-.- but the point is chole is quiet nomore! im soooooooooooo glad!yess sense of accomplishment! (: glad tt im able to open up her heart and interact with others!

well partnered mostly with lp daryl and mostly its damn hectic. its x100 times worse as compared to childcare centre. the kids there are smart and outspoken, and i noticed the primary sch "boy like girl" "girl like boy" traditional trend where they start hitting and annoying each other. its quite amazing and alittle irony!? hehh. i found it cute in a way.

had a change to bond with grp D and E. sometime they just amaze me, like this question
posted to me awkwardly. "ehh, you wear 2ring..you married twice?" like gosh! tt came out frm jeremy! one of the boys who gives me attitude the whole time. one thing we (us trainers) found out, pri3 kids are not as innoncent as we thought! shant elaborate here.

to cut it short cause im soooooo way tired, here's the things which make me smile:
-sudden appear from the back with a big boooo.
-dragging me up the stairs wanting to get first
-the many "how old are you!" questions
-grabbing hold real tight to my hand w/o letting go
-getting appreciated by student
-the many -pickme pickme!- when asked to ans question
-smile and joy when we got first
-many "thankyou!" when recieved the prize
-snatching to get autograph *honoured(:
-waiting outside after dismissal just to take a picture *awwww.

well its a good experience. had a chance to lead and manage the children, it aint as easy as what i thought.

i really appreacite all your doings little ones! mainly jinjia, chloe, jeremy, felicia, weijun, and rest of grp DandEs. though i may get frustrated, pissed, mad, wanna-strangle-ya'all, i love you guys! glad tt my effort is all worth it(:

2007-09-01T12:11:00.000+08:00

nicole: yupp the show is awesome! andand u're out of spore alrdy! sadd.
MISS ME!!

hazel: go catch the show if you can! niceeeeeeee(:
ehh sorry i cant go for interview x= dont kill me!

celia: hehhh! there's not much diff with my hair! and yes go catch the show if you have time!(:
and YES YES YES! i wanna go out with you! find one day when you dont have work k!

hl: -.- you horrible ungrateful person! i sacrifice my dvd-time for it! and what's "dont waste your tea on her" !????? TIME YOU MEAN!???? gosh.

2007-08-29T15:22:00.000+08:00

at this rate, i guess i'll be blogging like at least twice a day. hmmm. argh daryl just called to give me joy's number, his piano cher. im not good at calling! -.- i mean with unknowns. okieokie, just crapping. plain nervous alright!!?

zzz just called! convo for 18 mins. andand. she sounds scary! nth like what he described x= so damn calm and quiet. and keep clearing her throat!?? at first im AHAHA-ing away. and then im jus "OHHHHHH! i see i seeee."

zzz. she said sth bout placing me in music and movement, dance sth like HIGH5. not bad! i mean i always like watching high5, but not a maniac who dance and shake infront of tv. butbut. she's like " must have leadership skills and can talk infront of hundreds. start with 20, den 30, 100 and 200!" and im like, " woah! i'll try." *omgosh!!* i mus dance infront of hundreds!? FAINTS. zzz im hungry. craving for curry, laska, tomyam.

okie there's like 2camps for me nxt wk. briefing+daycamp+2half daycamp. okiesss im off. butt starting to hurt.

2007-08-29T12:53:00.000+08:00

rarr. i come online with the intention of blogging but the inspiration is gone! i guess i can only pen down with pencil in my notebk! yupp. ehh deicided to change my writing style from lotsa para less words to chunky paras. *sighs* is it the rain tts affecting me or what. feeling mooooody agn.

ohh wells, shall just recap what i've done recently. movied on mon with nic, hairspray. awesome show, inspiring too. i wanna live in a world of musical! where ppl dance and sing on streets, with their huge weirdo-looking hair and fanciful (?) long dresses. somehow i long to live in the sixties, where such musical really exist. crazy it may sound, but its just a thought. ohh and i loved the way tracy protray herself! i mean she's so positive, despite her size and all. her motivation to pursues her dreams.. andand i loved the "i can hear the bell ringing" best! i dontknow. but somehow funny and sweet and ahahaha. just loved it.

if you have no idea what im blabbering about, here's nicole blonsky (tracy in show) she's so bubbly and cherrie! and she can singgg really well. dance tooo.

there's john travolta ( acting as tracy's mom, he look so HOHOHO -huge-), zac efron, amanda bynes. only know these few. well catch it if you wanna some laugh. it will keep you in high spirits and too, move along in your seat! ( its proven!)

2007-08-28T15:39:00.000+08:00

bleh
its raining the entire day!
nice and cooling.
HEH

butbut
staying at home is BORINGG
though currently im addicted to this taiwan drama
but i wanna work!
yupp.
its either seller of cam with haz or teacher asst with daryl and lp!
indecisive.
well, shall wait and see!

ohh ya
cut my hair on sun-.-
though many say there aint diff
but i hate it!
i wan my long hair back! though its curly and messy.
IM MISSING IT ALRDY! :(

okie im going back to the vcds
BYE!

2007-08-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

okie!

wanted to post the many pictures taken ytd!

the touring of spore!!

butbut

have to wait till nic send me!

sooooooo

here's one pic taken in ntuc with celia

and another with yz!

had dinner with them
long time since we last catch up to talk!?

okie mayb only to me

HAHA

the eating crapping bubble tea-ing and walkin aimlessly at plaza

all due to the heavy rain!

yessssssss
i miss their accompany

ALOT!

so rmb nxt fri! BUGIS!

short post

shall blog more when i recieved the pics!

here's the pics in airport!

1. *WAVES* 2. we are all happy to take pics with ronald macdonald(:

3. dont provoke me or i'll STARE 4. hehh yz!

2007-08-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

was feeling alittle... weird!?
kinda hard to describe
but now its 180degrees change!

okie im extremely
-EXCITED-
daryl jus send me many of secret's piano score!
like frm the movie!
ahhhhhhhhhhh!

am i easily contented or what!?
HA!

if any of you want, TELL ME!
i will be happy to send you(:
soooooo addicted to the pieces, they are so sad
andand gosh the 4 shou lian tan is awesome!

okie i've decided
i wanna learn PIANO agn! yupp!

2007-08-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

booooo
today's weather is soooooooo nice for sleeping
was almost late
and NAI-COLE commented tt i look haggard

-REALLY!??-

paper was managable but i think i did badly
plonk right into bed when i got back!!

yesterday was quite an EVENTFUL night
spend almost the whole night mugging away
not really fruitful as im busy doodling away
YES which resulted in lack of sleep-.-
im so not going to do tt on sun night!

anyway
my main purpose is to post about last night
i was at my most condusive area
facing the window where the cold wind blows
and suddenly!

- I LOOK UP AND SAW A FIGURE DISAPPEAR FRM THE BLOCK OPP MINE!-

is he like spying on me?!
-paranoid-

i swear my heart stop beating!
it was exactly like disturbia
except not tt scary and all
MAN. shldnt have watch tt movie
it only give me the creeps!

and so, i spent the later part of the night pycho-ing myself
THE BATTLE OF THE BRAIN
*chuckles*
come to think of it. ITS SILLY!
BAAAAAAA!

man i spend like most of my time idling away instead of study!
1. hooked onto piano. can sit and play for hrs!
2. addicted on bro com game. stupid but fun!
3. tv. my worst temptation at home-.-

i know i shld start on ppcm now
butbut
i simply dont have the motivation and mind power!
-so dead-

2007-08-12T12:45:00.000+08:00

mann

its just plain...weird?!

i enjoyed the movie

and the lunch.

i can see your effort

cracking some jokes here and there

lightening the whole atmosphere

but the whole situation is just so really.. AWKWARD

i dontknow. i really dont

plus.
there's lots of memories in tt place

roaming ard there is painful to me

i cant just pretend and ignore

and paste tt fake smile on my face all the time

its true tt your gesture is sweet
BUT

you are a total complete stranger to me

i dont think i wanna experience it agn now

2007-08-12T12:44:00.000+08:00

zzzz

no motivation to study
plain staring at the papers wont help
perphas i was too pre-occupied with stuffs
and indeed
this makes me wanna eat
ohh wells
im off

2007-08-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo
just edited some stuff! (:
yayyy no more assignment
2more papers to go!

butbut
i have no mood to study=x
anyone out there wanna go out and mug??

anyway
wanted to blog bout ytd
the oh-so-hilarious incident in morning
was preparing breakfast, getting ready to put the bread into the toaster when..
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
i jump and my bread flew!
dad sitting outside stare at me and scream," WHAT YOU SCREAM FOR!!"

im like.." HUH!"
im the one who got a shock here!!

realised the one who screamed is my mum!
she saw a lizard-.-
she claimed tt its BIG!

GOSH.
first time hearing her scream
till your heart can stop right at the spot kind.
and my poor bread!
sadd

wells
off to bathe!

i wish upon the star(:

2007-08-08T19:07:00.000+08:00

RANDOM PICS (cause im boreddd)
1. skipping! 2. my hazelnut chocolate for energy!
3. the long waiting at yishun mrt 4. the long journey to NAI-COLE's hse

2007-08-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

tmr's national day!
but sadly i dont feel any excitement
ohh wells
at least i finish my IT assignment!
yupp. the whole thing!
so happppppy (:

lalala
singapore!
early happy 42th bday!
*sings*

2007-08-05T18:08:00.000+08:00

back to bloggg
gosh. been playing the piano for the entire day!!
hehhh
i guess i really do miss it alot.

shld i learn piano agn??!
awww. indecisive..

guess what
i think im fallin in love!
with.. MY PIANO!!
ahahhas!
yeah lame. but really i do!

sth random
i find guys who play the piano damn attractive!
HA!

2007-08-05T11:30:00.000+08:00

booooo.
i hate staying at home alone

both didi-s went to tuition

pa and ma disappear out

yingying!!

really you know

i was already typing out the msg

planning to send it out

den zzz

realise you in UK-.-

seeeeeeee. this prove i think of you!!

alright

some before and after pics

ehhh. look at me and yy

sec 3 or 4??! i cant recall.

US!! collecting of results

this year!!

wanted to post pics of me and yy to see if there's any before and after effect

but i realise..

i hardly have any pics taken with yy alone!!

MAN. sad):

so pls yy

lets take more pics nxt time!!

2007-08-04T14:37:00.000+08:00

hello ppl!

life has been pretty goodd..
yess after IT assignment and 2tests,
its HOLIDAY!
yayys. cant wait!

wellss,
just finish my portfolio. shall continue the rest of the IT thingy later..
nv expect myself to say this but.. dreamweaver is fun!
and i actually enjoy IT lesson! paid attention to her class!
(minus the part where she blow up at us for the printing money-.-)
zzz

anyways,
got back results ytd
happy sad??!
both..
believe can do better.
wells,
shall jiayous for the coming 2tests!

ohh ya, shall post pics some other day! realise my blog is so empty. com is lagggg..
and and.
I ENJOY MYSELF WITH YOU GIRLS!
u guys really make my life in poly worth while :)
ytd's screamings and the OH-MY-SO-EMBARRASSING-singings is
G-R-E-A-T!
heeeee.

to celia, my avid reader: HAHA! u help me make k!!! im bad in html codesss =)) andand. dont get too discouraged. (hint: I READ YOUR BLOG!) jiayous! everything will be fine.

2007-07-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

okie
my legs are officially turning jelly
after all the running frm the study rm to my rm
plus tt sudden knock when i bump into my bro when i was goin out
and he has a cup of COLD water in is hand
so yeah im wet =x

zzz
this is my first time ever complaining bout bus driver!
the bus is so totally pack
and to make things worse
he totally cant drive!
i was practically DANCING on the bus ( if u get what i mean)
no handles ard
and so
when the bus jerk to a sudden stop
i grab hold of a guy's bag to prevent frm flying
yes-.-

im so very terribly embarrassed.

2007-07-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

zzz
okie jus got home after handin in the assignment
man
i feel so weak
guess tt mango monkey frm atrium couldnt help
din eat like.. frm yesterday till jus now??
yeah
dont ever try. hurts like hell..

2007-07-24T08:56:00.000+08:00

I'M SO PROUD OF MY DIDI!

last night he show me his papers.
28/30
26/30
21/30

OH MAN!
he hardly passed his maths
but this time round
he put in so much effort!
im so so pleased with the results
=))

im supposed to study for ppcm last night
for the test on wed
but he had probs in physics
so i helped him!

im such a nice sis!!

2007-07-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

random stuff!

im typing with my right and eating bao with my left
im gonna blog till 11 to watch chin drama on channel8 tt is so so cool
im bad in blockade
i wanna read harry potter!
i had laksa+prawn noodle+mango juice for lunch which is superb!
(though the combi is weird)
im craving for mango icecream!
im so so full

wow
i only took 8 mins to blog!

2007-07-22T12:09:00.000+08:00

heyy ho!
going out soon to make contacts!
gonna blog short!

ytd was a blast!
yes yes
retarded+funny+omgness!+unglam+whatever you name it!
nv experience tt LAUGH OUT LOUD
till your tummy hurts for a long time!
double high-ness

shall upload pics some other day
byee!

2007-07-21T13:30:00.000+08:00

woah

blogger is so really slow today

im going out soon!

let the pics speak

band!spot me at the back?!

thans haz for sending me!

pics grab frm nic

GOSH!

the time at kap is totally MADNESS

you girls rock!=)

me and bf being a total retard

many more UNGLAM pics

my face is so totally gone

alright

shall post just one

chuckles*

i love my class!

meeting my girls later!

glad tt though we live far

(like frm one end to another)

it din stop us frm meeting up

and getting to know more bout each other!

I LOVE YOU GIRLS!

2007-07-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

BAM!
i realise i reply too much on technology.
and i mean way TOOO much!

was in bus when i realised i left my phone at home
no way can i u-turn to retrieve it
and gosh!
i have absolutely NOWAY to contact haz!
zzz
panic.
went to canteen1 but there's no sight of her!
felt so lost
started walking ard in hope to catch a glimpse of any familiar face
BUT THERE'S NO ONE!

at tt point of time
i felt so helpless agn
im so lost and frighten in this big school
this feeling is somehow so so familiar
the feeling of abandon and pain gushed out, making me dizzy( din eat the whole day-.- no wonder huh)

i walk ard aimlessly
was on verge of crying
( cry easily these days=x)
and the one-and-only solution i can think of is to pray
->before today,praying will be the last thing on my mind
im simply just too busy to stop and think for awhile

God is indeed so wonderful
i pray to Him to save me
to let me meet someone i know, and to get rid of this horrible feeling

He is indeed awesome
thankyou Lord, for being there when i needed You the most

fb appeared right in front of me after tt
i flew towards her and almost break down
THANKYOU LORD
although im unloyal and defiant
and skip church for so many wks
You never give up on me
You are always there
and today, i realise im so so stupid
all the crap stuff bout emo and all
are nth compared to YOUR LOVE
Heavenly Father Lord, thankyou

yes
w/o today's incident
i will not learn bout God's love and His assurance
i realise life's not all bout relationship
its more than tt
the faith towards Him is more important
thankyou Lord
for waking me up

i promise You
i will be strong
no more emo-ing and all those nonsense
pls Lord
give me the strength to completely forget bout him

will blog bout band some other day
the forcus for today is God=)

2007-07-19T15:57:00.000+08:00

previous post deleted

why?
why do i have to press tt godamn button so many times in a few mins
why does tt weird feeling lingers everytime i see him online
why am i worried if he's coping and is doing well
why do i think bout him out of the blue moon
why am i feeling empty and sad inside?
why do i have so many whys
WHYWHYWHY

im full of questions with no answer

just let go
it aint worth

2007-07-18T20:46:00.000+08:00

By Cathy Chen
Do you have any idea how I feel'
As if my heart was just ripped out.
I actually thought our love was real,
But now I don't know what it's about.

Every day I just feel heartbroken,
With thoughts of you in my head.
If only my heart could've spoken,'
I love you' is what it would've said.

Too bad this feeling won't go away,
No matter how much I want it to.
But in my heart you'll forever stay,'
Cause our friendship is still very true.

I've tried really hard to hate you,
But somehow it just wouldn't work.
Even after everything I went through,
I still don't think you're a jerk.

No matter how much I try to deny,
Our friendship will forever last.
Although sometimes we might lie,
The past will always remain the past.

a poem i found in yahoo

been thinking
and..
im still undecisive

i simply just dont have the guts to do it

2007-07-17T18:13:00.000+08:00

wooo! free icecream drop from sky in atrium!
and its CHOCOLATE!

pics! look at deb's retarded face-.-

all are in except haz and jess! =(

take care of urself jess!

this proves she's a loner

rather sit in the sun

and this is take frm DEBORAH LAM's blog!

i dont know if you can read,but this is what we've been doing!..during IT lesson:)just click on the pic and scroll all the way to thr right ADN you'll know how retarded DOROTHY TAY is!

seeeee. she's actually the real mean one.

BLOGGING in IT lesson.

i will post many of your retarded-no brain-weird looking pics

lalala come kill me if you can.

lastly a pic of me and bf! dont get jealous haz!

chuckles*

ps: people! pls write a comment after reading alrite! be it encouraging or sarcastic. thankyou!=)

2007-07-14T21:17:00.001+08:00

emo feelings start to sink in agn
i can only stay positive like..2days?
and now im back to square one.
i think i will start wearing black and stay emo forever

2007-07-14T11:05:00.000+08:00

mum: ehhh. you staying home today?
me: yeah i guess so..
mum: i thought you have activity?

me: huh. nooooo.
mum: sth bout collecting newspapers?
me: yeah Ten Tons. its 14july.

mum: today is 14th!
me: *STUNS!*

ahhhhhhh.i actually forget bout it! knocks head* guess was too tired..

well celebrated 2 of my frens bday yesterday! nic and daryl. start of the day by getting back play motor assignment results. a pathetic B. sad? kinda=x but well. i din put in my 100% effort so its kind of expected. and yet,im relieved i pass! hee. and we started taking pictures! plus class photo too! and the retarded 1 to 10 pose picture. HA!

zoom out of sch to take 67. waited really long! and for a moment i thought there's no 67-.- BOOO! and finally it came. the bus journey was spend laughing away with nic! and yes she amuse me all the time.head to pizza hut. have to wait cause we wanted the inside seats. so haz bx me zoom up to buy the present and fly down to order the cake! went in and pretended to have a tummy ache. but they say my acting skill is bad-.-

ate and soon its time to collect the stuffs. bx and i zoom out agn!

wow i din know planning surprise is so STRESSFUL!

din get to enjoy the food cause im busy thinking how to sneak the cake in the entire time! but luckily we managed to pull it off. HORRAY! nic enjoy the cake! and i shouted her name when bx and i gave her the present. she's like so SHOCK! thought im mad at her. SILLY GIRL!

pictures we took.

zoom off to causeway. thought i will be late.

but im the earliest.

walk ard before they call me.

staggered into the cinema. and i wonder who's the smart one who told me our seats. cause 2girls came in and so called told me off-.- cause im sittin at her seat.

the movie is alright i guess. and agn i slept!

went off straight after the movie. and sleep agn in bus!

only when im getting sth out of my bag did i realised daryl's present frm thers is with me!

-.-

ohh great.

its famous amous

told you not ot put it in my bag! and he says i can have it

grrrrr.

2007-07-12T12:48:00.000+08:00

continued..

hoho.i just feel damn happy.no reason why though.HA

came back frm westmall.just love them to bits.plain talking alone makes me high.what happen if we have chocolate milktea with extra small pearls?!! hee.okie im feeling really HIGH. went out with mk celia yz.ate pasta!and amazingly i finish mine though im not hungry.walked ard.and yes.plain walking makes me high too. i dontknow why. mayb its because of their company! ( HA.see i love you guys lah!)

was really high in bus.and agn,the bus is filled with our laughters! but who cares? HA. some jokes are really funny! almost get choked on the pearls!-.- so..no drinkin of bubble tea when telling jokes!

i missed those crazy times with them. awww. but sadly we cant rewind time.

wow. lalala i've blog twice in a day!

***

im back to blog! ehhh was feeling rather emo the past few days.i dontknow why too.jus plain emo.so..thanks to those who show concern.HA! i apprecite it!

this blog stinks cause its so emo.so..i shall blog bout happy stuff!
went down to bugis with clique after lesson.the handing in of assignment is seriously one big weight off my shoulder!damn glad tt its over.we so called outcasted nic by not telling her stuff.HAHA its for yourbday girl!so no worries! :) and yes.i spend money agn.i cant stand temptation!gosh..haz keep pyscho-ing me to buy grrrr!

finally get to eat ICECREAM! like after saying for so many mths.
and the lady who sold us icecream is really friendly.she actually managed to convince nic bx and haz to buy! HAHA! we are a bunch of icecream lovers! the icecream is definitly worth it! really brighten my day(as im quite emo before tt. sorry girls!)

an icecream a day gives you laughter and joy forever! (doesnt rhyme i know)

felt different.happy tt im gettin to know my clique better.love ya girls!
icecream not only make me smile.it also makes me think. all those stupid and negative stuff are just plain childish. cmon im 17 alrdy! no more emo-ing for me now! i've grown up!

to you:
yes i promise you. i wont give up,you too yeah? lets strive hard together :)

2007-07-05T16:56:00.000+08:00

jus woke up frm a terrible nightmare. its so scary.. i dreamt being abused by ppl. but i cant rmb who. i jus keep runnin..away frm tt person. and when i woke up,i was cryin. took me quite longto realise tt its a dream. but what the..it seems so real.
however. the thing tt struck me is..i have no one to pour to. i jus sit there crying. without a reason. the feelin of being alone is damn scary. tried calling mum. but she's busy..always busy.
all i want is so rest. cause of the terrible flu in the mornin,i think its because of the centre. instead i woke up feelin even worse.
!!!
i shld start on my assignment! but..im jus so not in the right state of mind to do so.
ahhhhhhhhhh. i jus cant sream everything out.

2007-05-11T19:35:00.000+08:00

this is wad i saw frm her blog.

i'll give you all the time that you need to consider.

but don take too long.

Jesus might be coming back tmr!

i'll give you all the space that you need to have.

but don go too far.

i don wanna lose you.

this is dedicated to you. my bestie of 9years.

rite. she's obviously talkin to me.
and i stare at it like..5mins?
mixed emotions
yeah. ahhhhh. sometimes i jus wanna give up.
im too tired for everything.

eyes are liek so swollen today. with heavy eyebags cus i didnt really sleep e prev nite.

finally decidedto go bbss with lp and gang
to collect cert and stuff
main aim was to look for chers and take a last look ard. demolishin ard mid jun
however...
we only saw some chers. left quite fast as stupid security guard come chasin after us
so no pics or anthing. sad? yeah.. daryl lied to me-.-
end up leavin ard 4cus im too tired=x terrible headache in morn.
imliek a walkin zombie today
and i kind of ps-ed both sides? yeah. im terribly sorry
my body jus cant take it.

sorry if i ignore anyone or dao ur msg.
its unintentional
really

2007-05-10T14:47:00.000+08:00

decided to blog. since there's nth much to do anyway.
I'VE BLOG HL-.-

came back frm attachment. was feelin super hyper,but nw kind of low?!
yeah. songs can really influence one mood and thinkin. cus i was listenin to emo songs=x

why am i influnced so easily??

haii. can i turn time back? stupid qn i know.
but im not happy nw.

seein how yy and mk chiong for their common test really make me stressup. plus they goin UK and everything. i really envy them. wad am i doin while they mug? NTH. im still stayin stagnant while they move on and pursues wad they wan.

why had i choose this path?
im starting to regret

stupid right

why didnt i study harder? i wanna go into jc. where there's no fashion trend goin on everyday and ppl focus on studies only. i seriously wanna wear a uniform. i jus cant fit in

pics are the only stuff left for me. BUT my stupid hse com broke down. all my pics taken in the last 4yrs are gone jus like tt. how pathetic.

many stuff in my head nw. studies friendship relationship life. everything is wrong.
if any kind soul outthere is concern,come ask me. i wont turn you down. but..at the same tiem. mayb i will. it depends.

feinimoshu is a really sad song

2007-05-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

first day was great!
but i cant give my opinion on here:/ so if u wanna know,ask me! :))

really an eye opener. im actually lookin forward for the nxt thurs!
HAHA

2007-05-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

it is alrdy the third wk of sch. still tryin hard to adjust to poly life and gettin used to the timetable.
today isnt my day. woke up with a slight headache. missed the bus and had to wait another 15mins. realised i forget to brin my laptop. AGAIN. stupid.. den had to run all the way up to lect78. yes run-.- its like i have to run everyday. either the long slope up or the stairs.
my cliques are great. i love to laugh and joke ard with them. but todayi felt really weird. dunoe how to explain. its like im so tired to do anything. even my smile is startin to get fake. i dun feel happy. but i have to smile. cus the dorothy they see is always so cheerful and smiley. gosh,i felt like a changed person.
and my attachment is tmr. so not lookin forward.

i felt really tired. tired of all the waitin.

2007-04-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

meaningless is the only thing i can say

2007-04-23T10:09:00.001+08:00

hello!

im here to post sth interestin. HAHA. my bros was tryin to disturb me. however they fail as i took my phone and take pics of them instead! muahahahahha.

they used my stuffed tigger to play volleyball-.- yeah.

woah!

HAHA. i told them to pose for me=))

look at him jump!

after awhile. they changed to soccer-.-

dribblin the so called 'ball'

i have no idea why it turn violent.

after tt he hid behind my closet

I FOUND YOU!

its revenge time! HAHA

and then he snatched my notebk-.-

attack when he wasnt lookin

bein emo. or..restin??

HAHA. he look so happy.

ahhas. guys are guys. but its fun..hasnt play with them for a long long time!

well. they make my day. HAHA.

2007-04-17T18:23:00.000+08:00

okies. its the sec day of sch. and yes. my class is great.
co2- i love this class. though i haven't reali bonded with everyone, but still i felt a bond.

met them in the morn. saw them carry their lappy. den it struck me tt there is IT lesson-.-
so..i ended up startin at cher and the whole lesson last for 3hrs. but. we spend the entire time laughin! yeah. cant imagie rite. my laughin partner is nichole! she's reali great. a fun and lovin girl who is great to talk to! yes. we keep crappin ard. and she's totally random too! we crack up at everything! HAHA. there's me nichole baoxian jessica and hazel!

erm. for sports and fitness. we are required to choose an activity. i wanted volleyball or netball. but! its some sort of first come first serve. and there is no seats left. so we had no choice but to choose others. its either soccer or cheerleadin. gosh! and in the end. i went to soccer=x yeah. i dont know how to dribble a ball! but i guess tts how it works. learn a sport tt is foreign to u. and im glad tt the teacher is happy to see us join. so yeah=) ahahs. though its mostly guys-.- as long as its not cheerleadin. HA!

2007-04-16T11:33:00.000+08:00

currently rottin at hm. meetin celia hl later at sch for lunch.
well..
u can say alot of stuff happen. and its mostly unhappy stuff.
i dont know wad will happen. i dont know wad to expect.
i had made up my mind to supprt him. to help him overcome it.
but..
is my decision correct? i seriously dont know.
there's not much reaction frm him. i dont know wad he's thinkin. or how he's feelin.
sch has oficially started. everyone will be busy with their own life. and their stuff. i wonder if things will change.

sadly. i have a feelin it will

2007-04-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

was feelin damn moody. had took a freakin 76stops of mrt plus lrt ride today.
if i knew. i wouldnt go.
yes.. i would have gone with lp celia yz daryl to sch.
and church in e afternn and nite.
yet.. i chose to go.
im such an idiot

2007-04-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

tt was taken last mon
today im rottin at hm
well. tmr's orientation! time reali fly fast
and yes! fb jus call to meet tmr at bus stop. at least i wont be a loner. walkin in like some geek who lost their way
anyway. i dunoe wad to expect for tmr. its like a new beginnin. for everything. i get to meet new ppl. learn new stuff. the excitment for hopin it to come quick is gone. mayb its jus me and my stupid brain.

anyway. i shall thing of stuff to blog bout. ohh ya! yz cant make it to np. so shes stayin in nyp. aahhhhHH! no more bus-partner. no more of dozin in bus. nomore of yz madness!! ......im becomin mad. HAHA

okies. so had went to fareast with lp yz on sun. though have to wait like..30mins plusplus? i still love u girls lah. HA. well. i bought a top and a necklace. didnt really intend to buy stuff. cus im currently still tryin to save! ahhh! well. its fun in a way. long time since we done tt. i wonder when we 4 can ever do such girly stuff agn. ahahs..

2007-04-09T12:44:00.000+08:00

grp photo

yes. everybody is waitin for u joe. HAHA

ha...

this is kind of candid

*mouth open bigggg*

actin spastic

me and dearest lp

me and cutie yz!!

aww. sad pic..

on e way back

free pillow advertisment

peace!

our shoesss

shoes

reflection. too bored

she givin me the ' AHHH! im dyin!' look

.....

yes u look cute lah. HAHA

okie. i seriously duno wad u doin.

yes! the oooooooooooo look

im a rabbit!

candid pic by stupid benho

and another

benho seriously look gay

another ooooooooooooo pic!

smiles!

candiddddd. i duno where im lookin

and yet another

4e1! yayy!

see no evil.hear no evil.speak no evil.

ya. we three look happy

smilessssss

2007-03-29T12:03:00.001+08:00

feelin rather vexed this few days
i still cant figure out why
WHY?
end up affectin frens ard me as well
this is not the way
its so wrong

this is the only place where i can write down all my stuff
but its reali OPEN
ppl like hl can see-.-
but not many ppl know bout this blog
ohh wells
as long as i can pour out all my feelings
i guess its alrite

its pretty ironic tt i actually missed sch
sec4 lifes is nth but exams and more exams
strivin to acheive the best
i recalling doin maths like nobody's business
u can say tts my best sub. aimin nth but for perfect
however
i only achieve a disappointtin A2 for both
where did it go wrong?

when i helped bro in maths yesterday
i realised i missed out so much
the joy of doin. the satisfaction of achievin the ans
where did it all go nw?
where did my passion go?

not forgettin the whole 4e1 spirit
all the teachers, esp mr quek and mdm yeo
they reali make a big impact to me
and all the frens who stood by me regardless of situation
I REALI MISS THEM!
can i actually make new frens in np?
i wonder

im actually takin ech for the nxt 3yrs, is tt wad i reali wan?
wad happen if i dislike tt course or i cant make the cut
where did all my goals in life go to?
why did it disappear?
i think im seriously lost

gosh
i think im writin too much
cus this blog isnt private all all

2007-03-28T14:53:00.000+08:00

yeah
met laopo on thurs
been ages since we talked
its like we lost touch all of a sudden
but im glad things hasn't reali change
HAHA

ohh ya
we bought a cute bear with wings keychain at yellow
and wrote message at the back
look at pic*
and she gave me hellokitty ring!
HAHA
im so touched
will wear it where ever i go :D

2007-03-28T13:52:00.001+08:00

HAHA

jus being random

2007-03-28T13:46:00.000+08:00

alrite
this is my second blog
and i make it cus im simply too bored at hm

well!
shall find a nice blogskin when im free!
then i shall blog!